Hole in my life by Jack Gantos pg.51-81

Summary
    In the first section, Jack calls Tim which is the friend who in the previous section steals his money and Tim gives Jack an explanation on what had happened that day and promises to pay back the money that Jack had given him to buy Medical Marijuana to steal. Jack Moved to St. Croix with his parents. This new drug culture in St.Croix is introduced where reefers and drugs are seen everywhere and the police doesn't care about it, they are too busy paying attention to other issues. This is when Jack gets into smoking dope. Also, the black movement in the island is shown were the black people are revolting violently and creating a "white extermination" movement were white people are killed and hurt because of being white. There is a great racial divide between whites and blacks, the violence rate increases and people stop working. White people cancel there house building vacation jobs, so this affects Jacks father and his business. Jack and his father are forced to work building containers. A man named Rik one day orders a container to transport drugs, he hires Jack to transport a sail boat and drugs to New York and Offers ten thousand dollar's at the end. Jack without thinking of the complications but of the money for paying his writing career, accepts this offer immediately. He goes on this adventure with a man named Hamilton, he finds himself struggling between surviving with a man that he clearly thinks is crazy.
Quote
   "But I dried my eyes and after a few beers and a couple of joints around back I imagined the great books I might write. Of course, I didn't write a word. It was easier to smoke joints and have someone deliver deliver drinks than it was for me to deliver sentences." (Gantos 53)
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   The word But starting this paragraph really shows the way the author writes about his writing being contradicted by Drugs and Alcohol. He feels as though when he is under the conditions of Drugs and Alcohol he is able to expand his mind more and write freely, but this quote shows that he under the actual conditions is not able to write effectively. His style is describing his problems in a very clear way but showing the reader his perspective by using Verisimilitude through his conflicts between Drugs and Writing. This quotation is important to understand because it explains a mini-synopsis of what the whole story is about which is Jack Gantos having difficulty fulfilling his dreams of becoming a writer because of drugs.